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"Um, I... I don't know why you need me, s-so... um... no, well, if you do need me, that's, w-well... just... just leave a message! I might, I might get... no, I will—"

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[persecutetioncomplex]

I know opening up is hard, but... the thing about Synchrony, is that absolutely nobody can do it for you or make you do it. You have to CHOOSE to do it.

It's scary, but it's true.

I think, since we can quantify and track our Manna levels, you should... probably set a hard percentage limit for yourself, or you'll definitely put it off, since you hate it so much. If you can't promise me anything now, with minimum pressure, I don't think you'll ever be able to promise it, period.

[hasitsthorns]

I mean
Like I've told him, in the beginning, it was okay, but like
The lake, the bairns, and who knows what else is... more than just scary
And every time I think about Syncing again, I just freak out wondering what fuckery might happen that time

But that's not an excuse, I know, and maybe I won't ever be able to deal with it
I can just hope it gets easier
Like you said, keep an eye on the Manna and not let it dip below whatever percent

[persecutetioncomplex]

The lake was awful.

Losing the bairns was so much worse than just having things growing in me.

Do you want a practice partner?

[hasitsthorns]

Yeah.
For as much this place tries to be all sunshine and rainbows and everything's awesome, actually, well- It hasn't been all that great lately.

[ You have to choose, she said, even if it's scary and so- ]

I mean
Yeah, I do

[persecutetioncomplex]

Okay. Then, I can do that for you.

[hasitsthorns]

Thanks, girl.
This is... definitely not how I saw this conversation going, I'll be honest, but I'll take it.

(๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧
I will try not to disappoint.

[persecutetioncomplex]

I was so scared of opening up to people I literally hid in my room all the time, a few years ago.

I don't know how much help I'll be, but if I can be any at all, then, well, I want to try.

[hasitsthorns]

[ She's so scared of opening up to people she has a glamour to look human and a perfectly practiced persona to hide the real her. So, you know, she can... actually kind of get that. ]

You'll probably be more help than you know.

[persecutetioncomplex]

[Mood, frankly.]

I certainly hope so! What time or day works for you?

[hasitsthorns]

Uh, well-
Oh, right, I have an actual job now.

Afternoons are probably best. Or late nights?
I don't know if you're a night owl or not but I am.

[ She also sleeps about two hours for every eight that a human requires. Even then, she's lucky if she gets eight through a week because hoo boy. Nightmares sure are a time. ]

[persecutetioncomplex]

Afternoons work, and most nights, since he'll be out at work.

I've also always been a night owl, yes.

[hasitsthorns]

Nights work best, then.

[ Gives her an excuse to stay up, at any rate. ]

I don't know how soon you wanna' start this thing
But I mean, I figure... it's something I probably shouldn't keep putting off so

[persecutetioncomplex]

Why don't we start with something simple?

Tea, or a movie?

[hasitsthorns]

I'm a movie kind of gal.

I've actually got a good one in mind if you don't have a preference.

[persecutetioncomplex]

By all means!

I don't know many at all, so you're suggestions are more than welcome.